Sunday, May 11, 2008
It's no fun anymore...
I'm writing this entry under the shades of a big tree; the same tree I sat under with my soul mate approximately the same time last year. The children are running around, enjoying the English summer.
Sundays used to be our family outing to carboot sales, followed by a picnic or recreational activity together when the weather's great. But I discover today that revisiting the place we used to go to with our hero is no longer fun. There's no more excitement in hunting for bargains. Perhaps it's because none of us are inspired anymore. Well, all except for Little D that is.
It's too nostalgic, and too painful.
The boys have been whining to do things they used to do with their dad. How do I tell them that things are never going to be the same? Where do I find the strength to march on, trying to make their lives as normal as possible - without getting all stressed out?
I know the answers to the questions but I'm just thinking aloud. Just pausing and reflecting.