Friday, March 27, 2009

The Move

I'm attempting to type this in between piles of boxes, baskets and bags of all sorts. Let's hope I can quickly get this done and published. If I don't get to finish this, you'll know that it's probably because I can no longer balance this notebook on the whole pile, forcing it to snap close or whatever... ;)

(picture taken from: www.arenamagazine.co.uk)
We're moving out and I'm filled with a mixture of emotions. Yes, there were sleepless nights, followed by headaches, backaches and heartaches for the past month. I'm not being sentimental about the memories I had with him here because I'm too practical to feel just that (yeah, sure!). Of course there were beautiful memories of us transforming this dilapidated house into our love nest albeit this wasn't the house that Mr D built. My anxiety to move out is more of the fear of uprooting and settling down on my own. The things to pack - what do I do with his things? Honey, what should we do with this? The loading - 'if only he were here...' The new place - where's my handyman? Where do I put this, this and that?

When we moved into this house, my man spent hours making up the toilet, attempting to improve on the minute kitchen, laying out new carpets over the dingy fitted ones, etc. Hence, there is that constant question at the back of my mind: who's going to help me when we get to the new house?

This is where the blessings of the Almighty is extended to us. I've got friends who have offered a hand and vans on the big day. I've also hinted for help in repairing and setting up some things around the house. Thus, all will be well, InsyaAllah.

Many have asked the reason for the move but it's perhaps best to say that it's just for the better. Many a times has the thought of moving out to a better place (perhaps one a little warmer and with a slightly bigger kitchen) struck my mind, but there was no way I'd get another place offering the same rate. So, I persevered and I told the children to hold on. My landlord's personal problem now is therefore just a reason for us to take the big step out of this house! Here we go!!

As reluctant and hesitant as I am about the move, I'm taking all this good-naturedly. It's hijrah. It is and will be better for us all, God willing. But I can't help feeling the irony of it all - we're moving into the house he had initially booked two years ago... Perhaps it really is fated?! Is it, Cayang?

17 comments:

Suzana Abd Manan said...

Hope you had a better house than before...Doa akak untuk D sekeluarga..Amin

Stylomom said...

Oh Dear, I didnt know you have had it in that house ( hehe). Where are you going and while I am gone too? I wish I was there to help you and you know how I am in putting things together... What ever it is, whereever you are going to, have faith that it will be better and my doa is with you. Cheers dear!

silversarina said...

InsyaAllah hijrah ke suasana yang lebih baik .

Jaga diri ye !

Fadhil said...

D,

It shall be a move for the better, I'm confident of it. Hope things settle down quickly ya... otherwise we may be missing you in blogosphere.

And be careful when lifting the heavy stuff :-)

Kak Elle said...

D wish I am nearby to give a hand and all the best for the new place a new beginning.

Let me know new address ya u can sms me.

Anonymous said...

Gooooo D! I can only see good things from this move and all things happen for the best, insya'ALLAH.

You're such a wonder woman. When exactly are you moving? Hope its over the easter break.

Ms B said...

D,

Bigger kitchen? Does this mean more cakes and cookies? *smiles*

ps: so snowed under. :(

Queen Of The House said...

Insyaallah you will be building a better home for the children with this move. Letting go of the old house may be difficult for all the memories involved, but you know what? The memories will be moving with you, too.

Take care, D.

Naz in Norway said...

Good luck, D.
Have fun decorating the new home :)

ilham abd said...

tinggal jejak...

kak D,salam kenal...

He knows best!

ileena said...

oh yeah...ada new reason to go visit coventry again:)
you guys take care there!:)
p.s: eh, snow dah cair??sini still snowing!!!!!!

ileena said...

oh yeah...ada new reason to go visit coventry again:)
you guys take care there!:)
p.s: eh, snow dah cair??sini still snowing!!!!!!

IBU said...

All the best in moving to your new place. Hope all went well.

Now don't over exert yourself yeah? Take care!

jane said...

salam ziarah...

pindah???

Nin said...

I admire your strength and courage and most of all, your "redha-ness" (sorry, can't think of a better word!) of what He has fated for you. You're in His good book :-)

All the best D. I pray for you and your beautiful family.

Anonymous said...

Kak D,
Selamat berhijrah! Saya pun ingin berhijrah juga..n i'm praying hard to God everyday, harap2 diperkenankan hajat saya.I really want to go forward n move on with life with no looking back..

Mysunshine cake said...

salam dear,
hope everything goes well. and enjoy decorating your new house ^_^

zar