I've just been back from a break. It was intended for the kids, but one which I also found a lot of good in. Being away from home allowed me time to breathe in some fresh air, to pause (a little bit longer than norm) for some serious reflection, and simply to appreciate the blessings bestowed on me.
The trip itself was a decision made out of the extraordinaire - into the homes of a blogger who had offered such warm friendship, but whom I had not met in person before. She accepted us with open arms and with her other half, became excellent hosts! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!
However, I made a blunder at the beginning of the trip that made me realise how much I had relied on my late 'other half' and from now onwards, the responsibility was entirely mine. I also saw what bringing up the children means, on a broader perspective. It made me think and weigh circumstances with a clearer mind, far from daily worries.
During the week's break, it was great seeing the children laugh and enjoy themselves among wonderful friends. Their laughters made me laugh too, but within their laughters, it made me cry. And again, I went back to the basics of surrendering to the Almighty. Having faith in Him makes you go on, and whatever lies ahead - be it good or bad, does not matter anymore, when we are safe in His hands, under His care. I am humbled.
Some time earlier, a kind friend had given me a slap on my left cheek, and another on my right! That's us humans, often forgetful and oblivious of the blessings showered upon us. Ergo, I thank my friend for waking me up from my sleep, allowing me to be closer to our Creator.
Hence, I am now recharged (oh no, not again?!!), with my list of things to do and resolutions all lined up and up on the wall - let my momentum be consistent this time... This is all about our faith, or imaan. I have mentioned in one of my previous posts of the fluctuating imaan in each being, and this is something I often have to struggle with as sometimes I have some crazy battles in my head. Make Him your best friend, and keep our targets for the hereafter clear. InsyaAllah, we will all get there.
(Please note that I express my thoughts and hopes in my blog because I believe in being optimistic in life. This is therapy for me, and it helps me enforce the points I have thought of. I am not all super-duper - I try to bury negative thoughts so that I can go on...)